I’m a father and a son; I’ve been a lover with just one But this world can get me all undone And I’m frightened I’m the only one I wrestle with the thoughts I keep If I sow the seed of arrogance then it’s loneliness I’ll reap It’s loneliness I’ll reap.
Please don’t leave me stranded here With a head of lies and a heart of fear My life’s a show on God's TV The world an audience, watching me.
So wake me, shake me, keep me sharp As I touch the power of God's great harp And this world can fill your head with praise That steals me from eternal grace So how can I serve God and wealth? I can captivate an army, but I can’t control myself I can’t control myself.
Ghostly figure out at sea, I hear a voice that’s calling me To walk upon the waves of faith For in the arms of God, I am safe.
All this time, since the day that I was born I’ve never known a time like this I don’t wanna let you down.
I will sing, sing for your light has come.
- All This Time, Delirious?
Would you live your life differently if you know your life is shown on God's TV. Would He tune in and beam with pride or would He switch the channel? Would you make your decisions differently if you're aware that God is watching your life on His TV?
God, all this time since the day that I was born, I've never known a time like this. I don't wanna let you down. No, I don't wanna let you down. Though the cross may feel heavy at times, I choose to pick it up. Though I can't see the whole picture of what I'm picking up, I choose to pick it up.
You've taken me out of the miry clay and put me on solid ground.
You died for me, so I'll live for You. I choose to live for...
'But as me and my household, we will serve the Lord.' - Joshua 24:15 Those are the words that are written in Chinese calligraphy hung on the wall of our family home for the longest time. I remember asking my dad once what was it, since I wasn't brought up in a Chinese school. He then taught me how to read it word for word. He would read a few words then I'll repeat them till I got them. Thinking back on the moment, it meant a lot and it's a verse that I don't just wanna memorise but I wanna live it out.
My dad serve's in this missions company called COCM. He decided that it was time God called him out of the secular working environment and he decided to give the rest of the years to God. Suffice to say, he was a different man ever since. As for my mom, I remember her cheering him on to take up full-time ministry a few years before my dad switched jobs. Thank God for moms I say :) What would man do without the woman in their lives.
2006. 25 years old. The R a y of today want to serve God in ways he never thought he would and could. I want this year to be the year where I knew God in a deeper way, seen Him face to face, talked to Him and felt His hands guiding mine in every step. I want to press on and to grab hold of everything that He has for me. I want to walk into the destiny God has for S k y e and myself together. To serve Him and devote ourselves for His cause, and not the cause of anyone or anything else. We want to enter the next stage of our relationship knowing that God has always been there for us and will be there with us now. He never ever let go of us. And God, please don't let us go.
I still want my life to resonate the verse that my Dad and my dad thought me when I was younger. As for me and my household, we will serve the Lord for all the days of our lives. If you can use anything Lord, won't You use me. Use us, Lord. Use us for Your glory. We want You more than anything else in this world. Only You, my Jesus.
This is my first time writing a post on my blog in Malaysia.Right where my family home is. The place I grew up, went to college and then off to university in Melbourne. I remember vague memories at every nook and cranny of the house. The smell of the room, the colour of the walls, the feel of the parque tiles beneath my feet as I'm blogging now. The sound of my parents' and brother's voice. The memories abound in such an overflowing measure. It drowns you sometimes. Makes you feel tensed up and tight. Makes you feel like you're living in the past, but in the mind of the present.
I touched down at the KLIA at 5.05am this morning. God's good. I was able to eat two meals, watch some Wallance and Gromit before the effects of the travel sickness tablets came upon me. I didn't throw up! Yes, that's something worth mentioning 'cause I'm not too good with air travel, but last night was beautiful. Definitely thank you, S k y e for buying me those travel sickness tablets. You're lovely.
Been in Malaysia now for more than fourteen hours and I'm still soaking in the Malaysian-ness around me. There's bits and pieces of Melbourne that comes out now and then, like when the woman at the pasar malam hands me some kueh, I would go 'awesome! thanks so much.' Just so you know, nobody says that in Malaysia, at least not in the pasar malam! hahaha...
I've gotta have my first proper dinner with my folks now. Been a while since we sat down together and had a meal. I'll continue to post up new things and pictures. Thanks again to the guys who were there at the airport, you know who you are.
It's Saturday 1.18pm now. Sitting at my neighbour, vonnie's computer blogging. Thanks vonnie. It's mightily and gloriously burning out there. *mind shifts to ice-cold chai latte* mm.. ok, brings mind back. As most of you might have already know, I'll be going back to Malaysia for good this Sunday midnight. Spending whatever time I have left here in Melbourne is precious and I'll be honoured to bring back such awesome memories.
It's been an awesome past few days here with my God-given friends here in Melbourne, Australia. We had dinner together with 13 other people at Universal Pizza yesterday. Thanks to all of you who came - Jeremy, Billy, Tjokro, Jolyn, Sharene, Joshua, PJ, Ee Lin, Maureen, Stella, Bonnie, Vonnie, Brodie and Agnes who came later. You guys rock and I really enjoyed the dinner we had yesterday. Porterhouse steak kinda rocked too! :) Love the sauce and the smoky grill flavour.. *joy*
After that, we went to Boba as what the rest referred to as 'Pearl Party' hmm.. ookie. hahaha.. Everyone sat down promptly and by the time I sat down everyone was already there and directing me where to sit! That's how I knew something was up their sleeve. When we were all sat down and some of them ordered their drinks, Sharene pulled out a piece of paper and started reading her speech. It really did encourage me and spurred me on. You guys are absolutely God-given and my 3 year stay in Melbourne wouldn't have been blessed without you guys. Thank you once again.
As I mentioned yesterday, I believe that you guys are not just friends but champions that God has placed around me and us to fight together and to fight for each other for The Cause.
After dinner, a few of us were supposed to go back to Brod's to hang out, but it turned out to be a drive to Mt Dandenong. Brodie, who drove 3 of us - Sharene, Jeremy and muself took an hour drive there and an hour back. When we reached there, the gates where closed so we couldn't go in there, hence Brods deviced an idea whereby we peep at the scenery of the city through the driveways of people living there. We took a few photos and we're off back to the city.
It was all good. Brods, thank you for driving us there and thank you for your hospitality! You're such an amazing brother. You're in fact my closest caucasian friend, after Ps Matt maybe. haha!
In awhile, I'll be going for coffee at Gloria Jeans with a few of my good friends. It's all very precious and awesome. Like how my awesome girlfriend mentioned in her blog, I haven't had internet access for weeks now so, I'll have limited time to blog new things. Please feel free to leave a note on the comment page though :)
I am excited to go back to Malaysia and to start a new chapter of my life. To be able to live out God's calling upon my life and see myself taking a close step onto the edge of the boat and step out in faith even though most of the times I couldn't see what God has for me. Despite that, the vision and the purpose of why I'm going back to Malaysia this time is clearer than ever and with the lyric of the song 'Always and Forever' in my head. 'There's nothing better and living for you, than saving my world with you, there's nothing better'. It's true, there's nothng better. Nothing better than knowing that you're walking on His ways and not your ways and to follow His voice and not your own voice. There's nothing better than being able to see the call of God upon your life starting to take effect in a glorious way. Glorious not being all the fame and such for they don't matter compared to knowing how much God favours and delights in His children obeying Him and choosing to listen to Him. And there's absolutely nothing better than serving God and living for Him with the love that God has placed in my life. S k y e, thank you for always being there and always not letting God's calling in your life take second place. Thank you for you! You're awesome.
"When all is said and done, And everyone is gone, Lord You're really all I want
When the best the world has Just leaves me feeling numb Lord You're really all I want"
All we want is You, Lord. Take our lives and use it. We pray that you're show us Your glory to us and through us. Lord, we will obey and we will continue to walk on as long as we know You're holding us and taking us from glory to glory. We love You and we will always do.
the christmas, new year, ps conference, everything, the port campbell trip.. church. there is nothing i wld trade for this. Thank You God for bringing us together as a couple. The memories in June, the memories now.. all i can say is wow... and thank You, Dad.
where would be be without you.
thank you, love for being you. i love you for all the time we've spent. i love u for all the words u said, for all the support u are to me and have always been. thank you for being there always. thank God for you!
we will be ending a chapter here n starting another one real soon. we'll hold on no matter what. press on no matter what 'cause the prize is still ahead.
S k y e, you're the best! and we are nearer to our forever as we take a step at a time.
