In 2 hours, it will be 14 days since we're together. I like the count up that we have now. Not that we didn't have one before. But instead of counting the numbers of days apart, now we can count the number of days we are together.
Nice.
S k y e dear, you came into my world and changed it. You made it beautiful. You took my breath away. You have my heart. Somewhere in the process when you went back to Singapore, my mind followed closely too. I had to pull it back to Melbourne constantly.
In between those 2 weeks, I had people asking me about you. One went "Hey Ray, how's your girlfriend going?" I paused, carved a smile on my face, my heart and mind went mmm, then I answered him. Girlfriend. I like that, love: People asking me about you.
Nice.
With a mug of black tea in front of me, in a 4 degree chill outside, I think about you. I want to tell people about you, about us, about what we have. About how Dad has brought us here and where He will be bringing us to.
It's probably only an hour before I hear your voice again. I miss you. Here we are On earth together It's you and I God has made us fall in love It's true I've really found Someone like you Will it stay The love you feel for me Will you say That you will be by my side To see me through Until my life is through Well in my mind We can conquer the world In love you and I...
It was the 17th of June on a cold, wintry evening. A couple walked into a certain French cafe, Laurent at The Causeway.
Dear, there you brought my attention to a huge faint lettering of a French word on the mirror wall in front of us. There, it was written the word A'mour.
S k y e, have I told you that you're some kind of wonderful, beautiful and gorgeous?
You feel so right, dear. Loving you feels so right. There in that restaurant, we relived the memories we once had four and a half months ago, but on that wintry evening, we were creating new memories. One we will hold dearly, close to our hearts.
there are absolutely no words that could tell the magnitude of things that took place in the past week. Every single day, every single hour, every spoken and unspoken word... they could not be articulated well enough in words.
...
Milestone; 15th June 2005. In fact, the whole week when she was here was a milestone. One that would be permanently imprinted in my heart forever. Thank you, Lord for bringing her here. Thank You for what You've done in us when she was here. Thank you for even bringing about people to affirm us. And you, dear... no one could ever take your place in my heart. Absolutely no one.
Just being able to walk down the streets of Melbourne with you, holding you hand, and knowing that you're around, living 2 streets away.. all these things they mean the world to me. In the words of Joss Stone, you are "some kind of wonderful" :) hehe
For everything that happened in the past week, I'm torn between hiding and holding them dearly in my heart or to tell everyone about it. I guess.... the latter took the better of me in most cases. But dear, for everyting that we have shared here in Melbourne, no one could ever grasp the wonder of just having you here, close to me. Only you and me will ever know how much all these meant to us. And even for the things beyond, God will be taking us on a journey that will continue to blow our mind and He will constantly bring us into new phases in our life together.
For all of those who have kept us in prayer, thank you.
I thank God for bringing us together in such a time as this. I feels right to be in the center of what God has for us. In witnessing the things He has brought us through, there we things and situation that we out of our control, but He has caused these things to take place and that has brought us closer together as well as just constantly making me, and us stand in awe of what God has done and is doing.
Entering into a new phase of life with that someone in your life is amazingly beautiful. Two people holding on to each other and more importantly holding on tightly to the Creator of Life and Love. If there's anyone who knows how to do life and life the best, its our Dad in Heaven. So, Dad come and be the Lord over this relationship :) I want to love her more, to be beside her, through whatever that comes, I know I have You and I'm thankful that you're here with me.
What was hard about this week? Seeing you go. Knowing that I won't be able to see you tommorrow. Won't be able to hold you. Then, I felt at the corner of my eye, tears started to well up and roll down my cheeks. I cried in that departure hall. Cried for the first time about someone whom I gave my heart to and love dearly.
I am going to hold on and never let go of the promises of God and I will never let go of you. You are absolutely so very dear to me. You make my life here in Melbourne beautiful. I glad that we're sharing this life together. And one thing I pray is that I will be able to share this life with you forever.
Completely and utterly blown away. Lord, you have asked me to keep trusting and keep holding on. I'm convinced that there is nothing to lose and all to gain in doing that. I'm almost speechless in witnessing what You're doing in our life now and beyond.
I remember talking about milestones once. Here comes another. A major one. One of those milestone that will not fade away with time. One of those that I want to look back and smile. It's all happening...
Tommorrow.
The weather can change, the music can keep on playing, but one thing I know is that tommorrow will not be the same. The hands of time could keep on turning, but doesn't mean much I there is no You and you. But it's all taking a marvelous turn...
Tommorrow.
Marvel. And I'll keep doing that. I don't ever want to lose the sense of awe. For the day after tommorrow will be a new day, and I will keep looking forward because this is not all that He has called me to be. He has called me to constantly look towards, the
This coming week, I'll be having a week leave. ooh yeah! Am looking forward for it heaps. Will be starting it off by a road trip with Jono, TJ, Sharene, Skye and myself :) Destination: not confirmed. But, who cares? When you have good company like that! haha..
Then, will be having a 3 church service weekend at the Arrow Building. Speakers line up are Mike Gugs and Matt Fielder. Joy.
"Come taste and see that the Lord is good".... mm... You are definately good, my Lord. But I know You're saying to me, this is just entree, a little appetiser to tickle the tastebuds. Bring on the maincourse in Your time Lord, because I know it will be good.
His love so unreserved, I so undeserved - delirious?
There are some days when I just want to come into His presence, stand, sit, kneel, lift up my hands, and just stay silent before the awesome King. To feel His weight come upon me, lifting the weight of the world. To hear Him whisper His unreserved love into my ear. There are some days where I would just want to soak in His presence.
Fill me up. Let me decrease, Let You overflow in my life.
Rest in You - Hillsong
Your faithfulness endures always Where mountains falls and reason fails And You calm the raging seas And You calm the storms in me, again...
All I know is I find rest in You... All I know is I find rest in You...
My heart will praise You throughout the night Where singing seems a sacrifice
Your grace is all I need Your grace is all I need...
Woke up to a bright sun-shining day. Everything seemed more beautiful. How the warmth of the sun just tenderly adorned every single moving thing, every concrete building in the city shone. The sky seemed more blue, no sight of clouds, just a very light blue sky.
It is a very nice day. It already is.
Every ticking of the clock, every nervous gulp, signifies the closing in of that 'one day'. My conversations with the Almighty would be almost silent. Standing in awe of His works I would most probably tear, run into His courts, beholding His beauty for all the days of my life. I would stand in awe.
The intencity of the 'God that can do far more than what we can imagine' is hitting me like a train. How simple God's truth can be, yet so deeply profound. I know I can trust You, the Lord of my life.
It's officially the start of a new season, which also means it's the end of yet another one. Summer came and went... Now, autumn has left us far behind, feeling a bit belittled by the magnitude of winter, I guess.
Have been waking up to single digit temperature every morning. Most of the times, the cityscape is a little gloomy, huge dark rainy clouds seem to hover over this city every single morning now. Quite often, there'll be a few hot air balloons 'floating' in the midst of the clouds. It seemed more peaceful up there, I reckon (or that's how I've always felt). Strange.
Chad Harding, our man of God, pastor of the Planetshakers Interns this year, shared that the seasons reflect more than just the change in weather. The seasons has been something like what God is bringing us through this year, from the start of the year.
I reckon, that's true for me.
God has been bringing me through spritual season too. And I am having the time of my life. Last year, 2004 has officially gone down the books as the second best year. This is THE best year yet. And it's only half of it! God, bring it on!! :) *having a picture of Lleyton Hewitt doing his hand gesture thing* C'mmoonnnnn! :D
Oh, and it's also the start my 21-day fast today. Significant. Because never have I felt so convicted to be committed to this fast so strongly. There is more. There has to be, because this is not it. There future is beconing. Did share this once when I went up to the church stage to share a testimony, that the first ray of light is always beautiful, because not only it signifies the end of night, but it's the start of something amazing. This year has been like that in a lot of ways, God has showing me ray's of His glory shining through. But there is more, His glory will be revealed when His mighty light shines from over the mountains and the clouds. I believe that God is bringing me through the second part of this year where His coming glory will bring His previous one to the next level. I know that there is more.
I'm holding on, constantly praying and leaning on Him, the Rock. Without Him, I'm nothing, but with Him all things are possible in Christ Jesus my Saviour. He, who started a good work in me will bring it to the day of completion till the day our Lord returns.
